takes 7 times--i heard nearly 3 years ago to leave an emotional/physical/psychological abuser. smirking promising this kind, sweet, genuine soul she was Wrong-well in the end i was. i lost my apartment to a ethically challenged slum lord now facing equalHousing monitoring by the city. i made the mistake of Trusting the pomegranate ex; against my intuition, berating, condemnding& feeding MeGuilt over providing a roof for a week. Incl. Using me for sex, claiming i had caused him bodily harm: faking orgasms Is? then i must Have...
the pomegranate ex isn't responsible, Lying, making false reports & claims that would never hold up in court. when i first began writing my blog-i had re-surfaced from the fog of his loneliness,isolation& hatred. others-are the Cause of Plight but it's never in Fact him who Causes anything. i humored myself by telling him that he wasn't that screwed up...screaming in public restaurants, humiliating hisLovers; pomegranate ex told me my entries upSet him; crying a river of crocodile tears. i have thought about this since last night when i wasn't crying because he made spectacle in his neighborhood; crying over Real issues with my back
& had grave pain that barely dissipating with the brandy i had with dinner. i still have more medical tests to do. since i still don't have answers? lifting my own belongings is tough & doing daily tasks exhaust me. in the past month of the pomegranateEx lies & usage of the Word Change**when one has changed....
**merriamwebster definition of Change @ the bottom of this entry**
Love isn't about guilting, berating--cheating on hisPresentgirlfriend; described as a Wonderful girl with meTwice. when you love someone you don't cheat or Lie. Your Honest- It's not Conditional, or a fine print guarantee...
Love is: Listening, patience-openness, that doesn't come with strings attached: That's MANI-pulation NOT LOVE. i want to thank my pomegranate ex showing me that he hasn't Changed. moving on without him will be easy-future is Bright even from my stale surroundings..
etched as the bull that charges & kills during the spanish run of the bulls, never facingconsequences harming others is a cinch.
http://www.edvp.org- eastside domestic violence center.
http://www.endabuse.org/resources/facts/ -natl. statistics on domestic violence.
courtesy of merriamwebster.com: Defintion of the Word Change: Main Entry: 1 change Pronunciation: 'chAnjFunction: verbInflected Form(s): changed; chang·ing Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French changer, from Latin cambiare to exchange, probably of Celtic origin; akin to Old Irish camm crooked transitive verb 1
a : to make different in some particular :
ALTER
CHANGE implies making either an essential difference often amounting to a loss of original identity or a substitution of one thing for another
ALTER implies a difference in some particular respect without suggesting loss of identity
VARY stresses a breaking away from sameness, duplication, or exact repetition
