RightFootGoesTogether

a few weeks back i posted a poem-i was assaulted. it's not something i am unfamiliar with-see past blogs for answers. this kind, sweet guy i was dating threatened me over this journal & itscontent. he also damaged a nerve on my left side-he justified. i have spent several years learning how/why the angry& controlling man works. growing up in it has made learn what i don'tWant. he fits the profile of your typical physical&emotional abuser. first being that the victim is responsible forHis Actions, never taking ownership forHis anger or consequences.

that was my job-i was responsible for him Not doing his school work, the 24 pack of ipa(little alcoholic) special trips to costco, anger thathe couldn't manage & not completing his graduateStudies. his last words to me was that he's not responsible. he mirrors our president elect to a tee. besides the lovely bacterial infection he gave me on top of the physical damage-how sweet canA guy be?

i attempted to be the bigger adult with him this week, failing miserably. when i told him that he was responsible for my physical therapy(something i never imaged doing again) & my medical bills-this sweet, genuine guy told me he wasBroke. he will be making a close to $50 an hour in a month. he also has a thing for his cousin-if i can call her that? she's more like the crutch & someone he emotionally cheated on me with.

i am grateful-he taught me that i still take my boundaries for granted, & health-as 3days after i had surgery he threatened 2x times in a week to throw me out his car. when the police arrived @ the scene they told me that things could have been much worse(after the assault;) i saw medics & doctors.

i know i have mountain to climb to find someone healthy-i know when i find him my work & putting my foot down willall be Worth it. loveDoesn't leave someone with a damagedNerve & black& blue that took nearly 10days to go away; it also doesn't tell you that you should be grateful that you're not bleedingMore cause he cut his nails.