going Blind?

i did a bit of Urban hiking in the last few days; processed a few things only someone else who has or had PTSD can understand. this afternoon i went back to pomegranate's ex former apartment where he and i attempted to live together in 3 years ago. whenever i don't know

which side is Up i go for a walk, without my now stolen walkman-i am inhaling life i never thought i would be able to. i also have a bit to brag about: my Year without Sex was Finally Broken; i had some. for the record the kissing was Better than the action. i broke my NoFling Rule that has been re-instated.

it's fact that i want theWhole enchilada-the one with the guacamole & sour cream; not old salsa (LTR.) i encountered a beautiful sweet guy this afternoon, who asked me what i was thinking about...no comment. that goes for this entry. it's not based in fear rather i realized that taking the past year off from Sex has been

one of the best things i could have done; planning on a Hot summer. if it comes with Love not Sex that is one thing. this coming weekend will be Final soccer game, a brisk early morningGame with the kick off @ 7am. ManchesterUnited vs. Chelsea in the semis for the FA Cup. i am sure i will be clutching a heavy dose of caffeine,

my voice broken from all the screaming & we will huddle when it has ended until the dreaded empty months without soccer. a few changes are coming; a few of them will be amazing. stick around to read about what every woman Loves. bikini&volleyball season. Sorry no pictures. i have this to ad: it's Not about having Anyone--it's about having Only One. :0)