shiny& new

it's official, i now have a my own business& my own place. this month last year was one of the worstMonths of my life; besides being stalked by my X's boyfriend after he and i ended. i don't miss the months of excuses for his emotional abusive behavior, nor how i'd have to account for why i hugged another male, especially one that looked better than he did, or callingUp my friends because we had fought again until the weeHours of the morning.

here i am a year later, happy-for the first time-that i can remember and it has nothing to do with a guy, i am currently on sabbatical after spending time treating someone(i drove 5miles to get him bagels on the eastcoast) that he was "working on someone else," last time i checked i was not a project @ work; enough said. being happy is grounding and freeing, i set firmer boundaries and for the firstTime in my life keep them. i also decided to take someTime off after my attempt to have an adult relationship i blogged about in august. i am learning how little i have patience for childish behavior and men that think that lying is sexy.

everything is shiny and new-i feel that i have actually altered my life in a way i wanted. i bowled a 163 bowling score with severe jet lag the day in came back; danced in the lanes and basically had a great time something i have had with many aspects of my life recently. i am looking forward to fall, to running through my favorite park in the rain-and being back in my favorite part of the city. if you see me i will be the one smiling even when it's a downpour, because life should be lived.