never.never.never.Give. Up!

as a subscriber of vanityFair i recently received the suriCruise edition in the mail & decided after ripping out half million in glossy ads to attempt toRead the verbose editorial= senseless banter; contrite would beOne word4 it.. i prefer talking on point.

someone recently urged me to write-considering i have felt that i have been climbing everest without oxygen it's a relief toNO longer feel stifled; not even by the meekest & weakest among us. i have been urged after 6 month break from dating 2 startAgain. my view of love & what that means has been greatly changed in the past TwoYears. i discovered this the other night when i realized that i was peeling a pomagranate in new, cleaner, better place than anything that has had my name on it before.

a good friend & i recently went to Ikea-a place i remember as if my childhood was yesterday-the ballroom& swedish meatballsTHATstill don't compare to my mothers. i had a few what i call IkeaMoments. i made some decisions to change my color scheme in my new environment; emmulating how i now see myself: strong. independent&LOVed. i have decided to decorate my apartment with my own pictures as i recently went digital.

what is with dressing4 an IrishFuneral this season? i will not be wearing gray or carry fugly overpriced purse; preferring bright colors with my crocs. looking like an 80's prostitute or madonna is not my idea of a goodTime. i was savouring a martini i had purchased with my own $$ when a veryDrunk fool told me he had heard that i am trolling4 men where i reside.

oh-okay-hold on--if i was a troller: i'd be drinking something cheap, usually with the word Light on the bottle.
i'd have to lie & say that i wasBroke.
& get on my pity pedestal& work it.
i had NOT only paid for my own drinks; deciding that whiskeyDick wasn't sexy. really guys-putDown the booze. i will not repeat myself-whiskeyDick is what you do when you're 22--it's not a sport you pickUp in your 30's& 40's.

my favorite season is fall: the hiking is better-i sleep better @ night-the sewage dumping cruises are Gone till spring.

(dateUpdate:)i am looking for someone who likes walking in theRain, enjoys hot coffee on cold days-convincing me that getting up @ 6AM on a saturday morning to go skiing is worth it; understanding that i will whine till i get my lift ticket & is skating down to the first chairLift. i love winter-snow, cold winds & making excusing for buying coffee just to warm up my hands. staying in just to cuddle.

enough of what i want:
back realLife-i was disgusted to learn after the last entry; that my 11k ex has gotten himself NewWheels; as i have said before ladies & gentleman it's JustTHEtip of the ICEberg. i can add fraud under his name-Juicy details will be forthcoming.

a special thanks is in order-Really you Rocked my world.(if you don't know-guess, it'sNOT you.)
4 all those who have stood by me & helped with my recent move. ya'r AWEsome..from the bottom of my retro-80's heart!