RaucousSex

seafoodFest is over the blue angels where driving me crazy @work the other day-considering they're not actually flying overLake washington; same as another issue i am dealing with-for you out of the loop meet me over coffee we'll talk. let me end my opening paragraph by saying that i am nearly done with physical therapy-only have a few weeks of volunteered gym time that i am doing & can lift actual objects again. may on some fun morning go for my cross training run BeforeWork.

i have decided to go back2 dating-since i have finally put theScreamer & $9beerman to rest-realizing that i have been dating double-gangers of my father. speaking of double-gangers, i am also apparently having raucousSex life-quite amazing from what the rumors i have heard. better than i could have hoped. someone whispered something truly hysterical in a coffee house i frequent. she is barely clad when she goes drinking; i won't dive into her insecurities. when i was in my 20's & resorted to the same desperate attempts to keep bf's in my life-who where obviously ready to move on.

that's something else i realized recently that i have been dating emotionally unavailable men, alcoholics, these 2 are usually mixed with either manipulative, controlling& physicallyAbusive. they're permitted to have Their lives---i should sacrifice my NightsOut, parties & or any other activities & worship in the spirit of fullOn narcissisms-Theirs. i am going to date out of my ComfortZone. namely dating men without garbage bag full of issues thatneed repairing: purchasing $9 beer on credit, coming onto my friends, professionalLiars. claiming they have Friends when in fact they're already FuckingSomeone else& don't have the capacity to BeHonest-even when it's over.

i have run into a few people that i have missed & have lost touch with recently. a good friend of mine recently said: so; you're going to date NormalMen; whatEver is closest to that? it'll be a challenge as it's out of my comfortZone. i was told the other day by a very gentle older woman that it's time for me stop flinging. something i feel done with anyway-flinging is so College. she told me it's time for me to start looking for TheOne. TheOne won't be any of the mentioned above. he will be comfortable within his job & in his own skin; he will act openly & honestly. if you don't Mean what You Say-or Say What YouMean-you don't pass go & receive $100 for good behavior.

a longtime friend of mine recently said that i should change what i have written on top of my blog to say Actualized. I Am Actualized it's something you only Get to See When you StepUp with me in my life as my close friends can attest 2. if Melrose Place interests you by all means don't let me you keepYou from creating a tirade of drama. Simply Stay Out of mine-call when you need throw someone in the pool i'll putIT on this page as a reference for what i noLonger am.