EmptySpacesBetweenWords

this summer was good and bad for many reasons, however after not letting anyone in, including someone that i really wanted till i met him..last week i was @ my regular open mic, sitting in my favorite place-he showed up, redFaced& high saying non-sensical things. he came in told me it was good to see me, gave me an old school friendship handshake-we've not haven't spoken for 2 months??

this morning i was greeted with a blow from a guy i have held a torch for the last decade; it was a reality check i needed. last night i saw my summerfling & his roommate, he hookedup with her, they have something in common deadend foodservice jobs& codependence-yuck. i prefer being solo, like i am right now, even if it hurts.

the email i got this morning confirms something i am learning about myself, i seek out men that can't or won't fit me into their lives. since starting my own company i have been blessed with a goodFriend and am seeing the change he wants to bring to his..what i am realizing is that i want to beWith someone that see's Me..

i will always wonder about the guy i have loved for the last decade, how can i not. the onlyONE that is responsible is me. my heart is no longer an easy target; as much as i may want it to be filled, i'd rather wait till i find someone that see's the entire me. i am also nursing a migraine-talk about a friday.